A MOMster Life

Hi.

I am writing this on the 7th of April.

Well, I was not really going to write anything today but I just had the most disturbing dream... ever.

Maybe you're guessing it's about me being unwanted and all because of my blog title.



But, no.

This is not about me.

This has nothing to do with my life right now.

This is about the unwanted children.

Children whose parents could not even love and accept them.

I can't even have the courage to search for a photo for this part.


So just like in any usual dreams, it all started somewhere unfamiliar with people I don't even know who.

But then all I know is that when I am still in my dreams, I kind of know them and it kind of have a reason why I am with these people.

We were on the hospital and there's this woman who had just given birth.

She said she never really wanted the child and so she wants to do the "procedure".

The so-called procedure is to bathe the newborn with vinegar.

The vinegar would slowly burn the newborn until he "melts"... literally.

It was really sad and painful... and I was just there!

I wanted to convince them not to go through with it, but it seems I have no control over myself.

I can't speak to them.

I can't reason out.

I just stood there and watched.

I can hear the baby cry.

....

I can't explain how I feel.

I am sad. Angry. I don't know!

And then I closed my eyes because I can't take this harsh "reality" that some parents could do this to their child.

Just then, I woke up.

I saw my daughter beside me and I hugged her tight.


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I am writing this article so that people would realize that what they're doing to an unborn child is no different from the born ones.

NO to abortion.

YES to LIFE.

Date of dream: October 31, 2014

The city.

I was driving on my way to Ayala.
I was coming from the south and had to take the highway route.

I remember that I had to take one left turn in order to reach my destination.
I just kept on driving and driving.
I still haven't seen the turn.

I decided to go back, maybe I had not noticed it.

Still driving.. and driving.. and driving.

But I still cannot see the turn.

That's when I realized I was lost.

I just kept on going on, hoping I could reach some place familiar.
Well, at that stage, I was not driving anymore - I was already walking.

I continued to walk.

I noticed a very small road, something only one person could enter.
Maybe that's why in my dream, I had to lose my car.

I decided to walk myself towards there.

I noticed that the road is going uphill.

Upon walking, I found it much "greener".
It seems just like what "probinsyas" would look like.

There was this part with a gate.
I tried getting myself in but it seems I am not allowed.

I continued walking up.. and up.

There was this unexplainable joy.

A feeling of peace.

Even if it seems I was the only person there, I was not lonely.

There were no worries.

I was secured.

That moment a thought came into me.

"Tell the Lord what you desire."

I then found myself speaking of all things I usually pray for.

I was speaking of my family, of world peace, of equality of men, women, rich and poor, and all other things I have not realized I may have secretly desired.

When I finished, I found myself on the very top of this mysterious hill.

I saw the whole city.

It seems I am on top of it all.

I am no longer lost.

I began walking downhill so I could go back to the city.

Suddenly, some inner voice tells me, "Do not forget."

I stopped before reaching the city grounds.

It's as if the feeling of getting back to reality suddenly struck me.

I want to turn around and go back to the hill.

I turned back.

And then...


I woke up.

A dream.

I was walking on a cemented ground and on my left side was the beach. It looks so beautiful, though the ocean really seems empty (no ship or boats).
The horizon was very clear and the color of the ocean was light blue (not the usual dark blue).

There were four people kneeling on the cemented ground - three adults and one boy. They were like laying some stuffs on the ground like dried fish and shells.

As I was walking, I noticed some puddles on the cemented ground. The water on those spots were really very beautiful and I could see the reflection of the sky and myself. I decided to take out my iPod Touch to post a picture in Instagram. At the same time, a thought came into me that I should just borrow my boyf's phone since it has a better cam.

Just when I was about to take a picture, a naughty little girl just appeared and begin pushing me into the water.

I was running away and she kept on chasing me. Later on I just realized this is my older brother's daughter.

While I was being chased, the cemented ground turns into this kind of shape - # (the lines are the cemented ground and the spaces are water pools - uhm. just imagine the rice field)

The ocean is no longer there but the change of setting did not really bothered me in my dream, because... well, it's a dream!

Until a saw a small two-storey nipa hut.
My Uncle was standing by the door.
(Note: He is the deceased stepfather of my brother)

I just said "Uncle ou!" pointing at my naughty niece who was chasing me.

I entered the nipa hut and my uncle hugged my niece, so she stopped chasing me. I just went upstairs where I saw my parents who were changing clothes because they would want to go for a swim.

And then I woke up.


Note: If any of you knows the interpretation of this dream, please leave a message on the comments section.